Today as we embark upon another anniversary of the birth my our dear little girl Katharina, I reflect back and think.....
1. she was so tiny and strong she would hold her big sisters fingers
2. she captured the hearts of not only family but the head of the dept. and staff
3. she was an answer to prayer I asked the Lord to allow her to be born healthy, and she was, i can hear the strong stubborn cry without the tapping on the bottom
4. she was so beautiful, soft, and had beautiful eyes
5. she was and always will be our treasure
Katharina has taught as many things. Even though she is not down on earth, she is in aa FAR BETTER PLACE....no more hurting, no more sinning....oh i miss her, but friends you must realize i would not ask her to come back for one milli second....heaven is again this year one more step sweeter to us...
For those who have prayed, send notes, and just plain cared, on behalf of Dan and I thank you!!!
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Thursday, June 2, 2011
NOT ONCE BUT TWICE, WHY ME LORD?
On Thursday, December 13, 1990, my worst dream became a reality. It became the lowest day of my life….so I thought. My daughter, Danielle Nicole, was to be stillborn. My heart broke as the doctor told me the devastating news. I cried, “IT MUST BE A MISTAKE!” but it wasn’t.
Little did I realize though I would have to go through a “normal” labor to deliver her. But God was merciful and gave me a four relatively painless hours of labor. I thank Him for that now, but at the time, I was destroyed. All my dreams were shattered! “Why me, Lord” was a question I asked constantly.
People immediately began to offer advice, and much of it was pretty good. Among other suggestions, they advised, I have another child as soon as Dan and I were ready. The doctors, though they could not make any promises, felt there was no reason why I couldn’t have another child.
In time, we took their advice when we felt the Lord was leading. The weeks and months began to pass, and everything was going fairly well with my new pregnancy. I was apprehensive, but that was to be expected. We knew I would deliver early and had prepared for that day. There was no doubt in my mind, I would be having a little girl, and then we would have three wonderful girls on earth and one in heaven with the Lord Jesus. However, it was not to be.
Have you ever had to put away a baby’s crib, a baby’s clothes, a baby’s toys, and everything else that goes with a precious little one? As you put the things away, you remember times past. When the little one did this one did this or that. However, when you put the baby’s things away without ever getting to build the memories from seeing the baby use them, it is a different story. This is what happened to us not once, but twice.
On the afternoon of June 7, 1982 Katharina Nicole came into this world. Though she was premature, the doctors believed she would live. Katharina was a fighter; she was breathing on her own, even though she was so small. Sometime during the next 36 hours, God called our precious little girl to be with Him. The only times I had seen her had been when she was born and right before she went to be with the Lord. I WAS SO ANGRY!!!WHY, WHY, WHY? I wondered what heinous sin I had committed that had so displeased the Lord. I wondered why women could kill their children and be permitted to have more. I wondered why God had taken my babies. Why? That wasn’t what was suppose to happen, was it? My girls were suppose to run and play in the sun. My girls were supposed to laugh and grow and have families of their own one day.
Now, though, I realize that all which transpired with our dear babies was part of God’s divine plan for our lives. Why? How can I say such a thing? The reasons are simple. Because of Katharina’s death, a little girl questioned her mother because she wanted to make sure of her salvation. This little girl has now committed herself to the mission field. WE PRAISE THE LORD FOR THIS LITTLE GIRL AND ANY OTHERS WHOSE LIVES WILL BE TOUCHED BY DANIELLE AND KATHARINA’S HOMEGOING!!!
Do you know Jesus as your personal Saviour? He willingly suffered an agonized death on the cross and rose so that you and I might be able to spend eternity with Him. “As it is written, there is none righteous, no, not one…For all have sinned and come short of the glory of God” (Romans3:10, 23). We are all sinners and deserve to die and spend eternity in Hell. “For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ, our Lord”. (Romans 6:23)
God’s gift to us is so pure, so easy to receive. We would like to know if you have accepted the Lord as your Saviour. God loved me so much He gave His only Son Jesus so I could go to heaven. Why wouldn’t I be able to give my little girls back to Him? I know I’ll see them again one day, and affectionately by Grandpa Schnarr, calling them badness 3 and 4 is spending a lot of time with them. Just as he did with Victoria and Tiffany.
We believe the beloved Lord allowed us to go through this experience not once, but twice, for a reason---to bring glory and honor to Him. I no longer dwell on WHY because I now know it was His divine will. I still miss Danielle and Katharina and always shall. My heart holds a special place for them, just as it does for Victoria and Tiffany. They are all the children the Lord has given us, and we thank Him for them.
Our hearts desire is for you to be touched by this. We will be praying for you. We wish you to accept the free gift God has for you eternity in heaven! If you have any questions please let me know!
Little did I realize though I would have to go through a “normal” labor to deliver her. But God was merciful and gave me a four relatively painless hours of labor. I thank Him for that now, but at the time, I was destroyed. All my dreams were shattered! “Why me, Lord” was a question I asked constantly.
People immediately began to offer advice, and much of it was pretty good. Among other suggestions, they advised, I have another child as soon as Dan and I were ready. The doctors, though they could not make any promises, felt there was no reason why I couldn’t have another child.
In time, we took their advice when we felt the Lord was leading. The weeks and months began to pass, and everything was going fairly well with my new pregnancy. I was apprehensive, but that was to be expected. We knew I would deliver early and had prepared for that day. There was no doubt in my mind, I would be having a little girl, and then we would have three wonderful girls on earth and one in heaven with the Lord Jesus. However, it was not to be.
Have you ever had to put away a baby’s crib, a baby’s clothes, a baby’s toys, and everything else that goes with a precious little one? As you put the things away, you remember times past. When the little one did this one did this or that. However, when you put the baby’s things away without ever getting to build the memories from seeing the baby use them, it is a different story. This is what happened to us not once, but twice.
On the afternoon of June 7, 1982 Katharina Nicole came into this world. Though she was premature, the doctors believed she would live. Katharina was a fighter; she was breathing on her own, even though she was so small. Sometime during the next 36 hours, God called our precious little girl to be with Him. The only times I had seen her had been when she was born and right before she went to be with the Lord. I WAS SO ANGRY!!!WHY, WHY, WHY? I wondered what heinous sin I had committed that had so displeased the Lord. I wondered why women could kill their children and be permitted to have more. I wondered why God had taken my babies. Why? That wasn’t what was suppose to happen, was it? My girls were suppose to run and play in the sun. My girls were supposed to laugh and grow and have families of their own one day.
Now, though, I realize that all which transpired with our dear babies was part of God’s divine plan for our lives. Why? How can I say such a thing? The reasons are simple. Because of Katharina’s death, a little girl questioned her mother because she wanted to make sure of her salvation. This little girl has now committed herself to the mission field. WE PRAISE THE LORD FOR THIS LITTLE GIRL AND ANY OTHERS WHOSE LIVES WILL BE TOUCHED BY DANIELLE AND KATHARINA’S HOMEGOING!!!
Do you know Jesus as your personal Saviour? He willingly suffered an agonized death on the cross and rose so that you and I might be able to spend eternity with Him. “As it is written, there is none righteous, no, not one…For all have sinned and come short of the glory of God” (Romans3:10, 23). We are all sinners and deserve to die and spend eternity in Hell. “For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ, our Lord”. (Romans 6:23)
God’s gift to us is so pure, so easy to receive. We would like to know if you have accepted the Lord as your Saviour. God loved me so much He gave His only Son Jesus so I could go to heaven. Why wouldn’t I be able to give my little girls back to Him? I know I’ll see them again one day, and affectionately by Grandpa Schnarr, calling them badness 3 and 4 is spending a lot of time with them. Just as he did with Victoria and Tiffany.
We believe the beloved Lord allowed us to go through this experience not once, but twice, for a reason---to bring glory and honor to Him. I no longer dwell on WHY because I now know it was His divine will. I still miss Danielle and Katharina and always shall. My heart holds a special place for them, just as it does for Victoria and Tiffany. They are all the children the Lord has given us, and we thank Him for them.
Our hearts desire is for you to be touched by this. We will be praying for you. We wish you to accept the free gift God has for you eternity in heaven! If you have any questions please let me know!
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